Thursday, December 8, 2011

I need your positive thoughts...please

This is the hardest post I hope to ever write...6 days ago I had a normal happy lovely life.Today I lie in a hospital bed waiting to be taken down to xray to begin radiation on my brain.
Last year I had a deep excision of melanoma taken off my right leg, tests came back for clear margins and clean lymph-nodes but somehow with the every 3 month check ups those cancerous cells managed to travel and  set up shop in my brain and lungs, as if one place is not bad enough.

What started me on this adventure was the bad cold I was complaining about last month it  had me coughing up blood...not a good thing for anyone. My Dr. sent me for a check x-ray and then a CAT scan that revealed nodules on my lungs. Once the bad new was delivered that it most likely melanoma I was sent directly to see an oncologist that specializes in Melanoma. A plan was made for testing, a brain MRI, anther chest and abdominal CAT scan, lung biopsy and a PET scan. Unfortunately symptoms of the ugly brain lesions rared up so quickly to give my a totally numb face, tingling in my right hand and foot and dizziness. So here I am at Baptist hospital in Nashville being pumped up with steroids and starting brain radiation today as well as having the lung biopsy today.  To add insult to injury the places they need to biopsy are not in good spots and my lung may get punctured in the process. Is this crazy or what? I am still waiting to wake up from this horrible nightmare.
I was unsure If I should share this or not, but I have made such wonderful friends blogging and need all your positive energy's to help me through this. You all are such caring and wonderful people and I really need your prayers and positive thoughts.


73 comments:

  1. sending light and love...
    good luck with the testing - let them take good care of you...

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  2. Dear sweet Judy, you've already been through a lot, and there's more to come it seems. I'm so sorry to hear about the discovery of melanoma. I don't know you other than through this blog, but you seem like a strong woman. Keeping a positive attitude, maybe a bit of journaling, and surrounding yourself with friends and family and all the things you love will help you through.

    Please keep us updated when you can. In the mean time, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

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  3. Oh Judy! I am so sorry! You will be in my thoughts -- I hope everything goes as well as it can ♥

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  4. Judith, I am so very sorry you are having to deal with this.I will definitely keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
    Glenda

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  5. positive thought coming your way!!!

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  6. Oh Judy, I have never been here before today that I recall. Sweet Glenda over at A Dab of this and a Dab of that has a post up referring her reader's over here. I am so sorry for what you are going thru! I have already said a prayer for you, and will continue to pray. Please keep us posted? I am your latest follower so that I can keep track.

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  7. Judy, this must have been very difficult to write. Sorry to hear you are having to go through this. My thoughts are with you. Keep strong, Hold your family and friends close and get as much support as you can and need.hugs.
    Jenni

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  8. Oh, Judy, this is so hard and I really have no words but I do have prayers and healing positive thoughts. Many hugs across the miles.

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  9. Judy - positive energy and thoughts are being sent your way! I am usually a lurker to your blog but I have always loved reading your post and seeing your creations. Just know that we are all here thinking of you! Take care - big hugs! Beth

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  10. Judy - I am sorry to hear how your world has been turned upside down. I wish there was something I could physically but I know I can pray for you. Please be strong and keep those positive thoughts flowing even though it is the hardest thing to do. Hugs and healing to you.

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  11. Judy, I am so sorry that you have to go through this. Of course you will be in my prayers, and I will add you to every prayer list I know of!

    Thank you so much for trusting your blog friends with this.

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  12. Oh Miss Judy! I am glad that you shared this. Because now our prayers will be directed to you. Our thoughts will be with your family. Our strength can become your strength.

    Trust that you are in the best possible care. Trust that you are loved. Trust that your body can do amazing things. And never lose hope.

    "Every day may not be good, but there is something good in every day."

    Find your 'something good' Miss Judy.

    Love,
    Erin

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  13. Judy,
    I am sending you all the positive thoughts I have (which is alot!!) I will pray for you, and will keep you in my thoughts! And I will ask others to pray for as well. Good luck with all you are going through! Hugs to you.

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  14. Prayers your way Judy! I have no words of wisdom but will keep you in my thoughts and prayers stay strong and march foward XOXO.

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  15. Hi Judy. I can't believe I haven't found your blog before now since we both love to create jewelry. I found you through Glenda. I am so sorry for what you're going through right now and want you to know that you will be in my prayers and positive thoughts!

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  16. Judy,
    Praying as I type for you and your family. When I met you I found you to be so up beat and such a positive strong woman. This cancer has met a fighter... and that's you.
    Lisa

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  17. You precious, precious soul! I am just so shocked and heart broken to read this, and I hope you have lots of support with you right now. I am honestly wondering how long it would take me to drive to Nashville. I can't find the right words, and just wish I could hold your hand. Don't lose faith. The world so badly needs people like you and I can't believe our God would let anything happen to you. You are loved!

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  18. Judy, I'm so sorry you are going through this. My thoughts and lots of positive energy are going your way. Stay strong and please keep us on the up and up as you get better! ::hugs::

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  19. Judy, I cannot begin to know wahat you are feeling about this road you are about to travel, but God does. He is the great healer, and the only one who can feel your pain. I know He will give you comfort and all the strength you will need in the days to come. I will be praying for you with all my heart. Love, diane

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  20. Sending all my positive thoughts and healing vibes your way!

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  21. Judy, though we have never met, I can feel your anguish and cry for support. Know that I am sending you prayers, positive energy, love and healing light. We are here for you, your blog sisters. Please keep us up to date on your progress. Stay positive and muster up all of your fighting power my dear.
    Hugs
    Diana

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  22. Judy you are in my thoughts and prayers. Please keep us updated.

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  23. Judy as you can see you are cared for and loved by many....prayers and light to you and your family
    GodBless

    ~Sharon~

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  24. Judith, we don't know each other, but we are both blog friends with Molly Alexander. That's where I found out about your fight with the toughest enemy of man.
    I personally believe that cancer is a spawn of Satan.
    You will beat it.
    You will hold onto the sleeve of Jesus.

    I pray that you will hold on tight to God's love and the support he offers you AND that you know that people are praying for you - even those who don't know you.

    God bless you,
    Jan

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  25. Judy, Thinking of you and praying for you...There is infinite power in prayer and God's grace.

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  26. Praying for you and a speedy successful recovery!!!
    Christine

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  27. Prayers and strength being sent your way.

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  28. healing thoughts and prayers are being sent your way........wishing you a speedy recovery

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  29. Like everyone else, I too will be thinking positive thoughts for you and sending cyber-hugs. I wish you the best outcome possible and the strength to make it through rough times.

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  30. Thank you for sharing this with us all. You are much loved and appreciated here in blogland, and will definitely be in my prayers. Much love,

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  31. You are in my prayers, Judy. This news is just devastating. Sending love and healing energy. You will be in my thoughts constantly.

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  32. I read your post and keep saying "oohhh" "oohhh" in that voice that indicates sympathy and empathy.

    It is 2 days later than you post so whatever happened is past. Nonetheless, I will send positive energy your way. Stay strong.

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  33. Praying for you right this minute...

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  34. You are in my prayers! Sending healing thoughts your way.

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  35. Judy, That took a lot of courage to share what you're going through with us. I feel privileged ... I am praying for you, Judy. You've been present in my thoughts as I've gone about my business this morning. You'll continue to be with me throughout the day and into the future. I know that God will nurture your gentle soul throughout this ordeal. He can do anything!

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  36. Oh Judy....I have no words, but am sending positive energy and light your way :(

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  37. All of the best to you Judy...you and your family will be in our prayers.

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  38. Judy...omg with tears streaming down my cheeks...i almost logged off but scrolled down to look at one more post and so glad i did...my heart and thoughts go out to you my dear...i am sending you positive healing thought across the miles...did u catch the (((((((HUGE HUG))))))!!!!! please get well soon and update when u can...i am so glad u shared as i feel very strong that we are all friends not only to share our love of our craft but our love for each other...take care xoxo Lana

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  39. It must have been so hard to write this post. Good luck to you - I will be thinking about you.

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  40. Judy, I don't know you but I know that God and the Universe works and provides in ways that we can not fathom or imagine. Be strong and ask for strength when you are not able to summon it.

    I will continue to uplift you and think of you.

    with much love,
    b.

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  41. Oh Judy, you are in my prayers and I'm sending healing thoughts your way.

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  42. I am thinking about you sweet Judy,praying for you and sending you the biggest hug ever.God speed my friend,Cat

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  43. My prayers are in and will continue ~ I'm a cancer survivor for 2 years now.....you have a new sister ~ sending big bear hugs to you and more prayers...please send a line if you need to chat ~ orrtec@gmail.com

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  44. Judy. Im sorry you are dealing with this! Ill pray for you and want to share I know people who have been healed from stage 4 cancer and God can do it! I am praying that as you are you feel Gods arms around you, that your wounds are healed and that you are given energy and faith.
    Best wishes
    Andria

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  45. Sending love and positive thoughts for healing!

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  46. You are in my thoughts and prayers. I am so sorry you are going through this, so unfair! We send warm healing hugs, loving prayers and positive energy your way. Heal quickly! <3

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  47. I will pray for you, stay strong!! xo

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  48. Oh man, I just saw this! What a rude awakening for you Judy! To think it's just a cold and then to have this news. You must be reeling! It sounds like you have doctors staying on top of it and doing everything necessary. And what frustrating and probably scary symptoms to have. I hope the treatments give you quick relief of your symptoms, and not too many side effects. Sending healing thoughts your way for a healing response to the therapies!

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  49. Judy - I don't know you - but you are in my prayers! I hope that this all works out well for you *hugs*

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  50. You are in my heart and thoughts Judy. Best, best wishes to you throughout his difficult time. This community is here for you when you need us. x x x

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  51. Judy I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this. I can only imagine what it would feel like to have this happen so suddenly. I am here to echo all the previous posts, in that I have lifted you up to the Lord today and asked for His strong provision as you go through your treatments- in the form of healing, comfort, peace, and love, and in the very solid financial provision that all of your needs are covered as they arise. Take care and know that you are not alone and you are loved.
    Crystal

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  52. Judy,
    I just saw Glenda's post over at a Dab of This and That. My heart goes out to you. You are in my thoughts and prayers!
    Hugs,
    Donna

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  53. Hi darling, I've come by way of Glenda's blog, I'm so sorry to read you're going through this. Prayers and good thoughts are headed your way. hugs ~lynne~

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  54. Judy, dear judy.. it's a nightmare, i have no words just : Lutte Judy, tu as la force au fond de toi, toutes mes pensées t'accompagnent,tu as eu raison de le dire, et d'en parler, nous allons puiser au fond de notre coeur, toutes, pour t'envoyer toutes les ondes d'amour et d'amitié que tu mérites.
    Hope hope and fight my dear. we think on you!

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  55. Thinking of you Judith if there is any I can do Im here.Be strong you can beat this Okay

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  56. I'm so sorry Judy! Sending positive thoughts and energy your way!

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  57. I can not thank you enough for your good thoughts,positive energy and prayers,it means the world to me. I wish I could reply to each of you but typing with a numb right hand is a challenge. Thank you from then bottom of my heart.

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  58. ((((((((Judy)))))))))))< you are surrounded by love and it's going to scare that nasty thing away from you...i have been thinking of you all night...i wish i could come and hold your hand>>xoxo <3

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  59. Judy, I haven't been following your blog for long and I've only commented a couple of times before, but I just had to tell you that you're in my thoughts and prayers. I could have written part of your post myself - I was diagnosed with cancer of the tongue in January, 6 days after giving birth. My surgeons and nurses were and still are absolutely wonderful, and because of what I've been going through I know the amazing things that can be done nowadays. I pray that you feel God's arms around you giving you comfort and strength.

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  60. Judy,
    Much love and prayers headed your way for a quick & safe recovery for one of the kindest, giving & selfless people I've ever known. You and Ed let me know if there is anything I can do while you're showing the Doctors how to not mistake kindness for weakness! Love, Travis & Ericka

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  61. Oh, Judy. You are most definitely in my prayers. Keep us updated when possible.

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  62. Dear Judy,

    Sending much love and prayers your way. You are in my thoughts.

    Sandra

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  63. Dear One,

    I do understand the anguish since I have walked (crawled at times) through the cancer pathway twice. I will pray for your full and glorious recovery. May our Lord strengthen and heal you.

    Love,

    Your friend

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  64. Praying for you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers! xo

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  65. I stop by your blog every now and then to see your beautiful work. This is a post I did not expect to see and am so sorry you and your family have to experience. I hope your procedures are going well, and positive thoughts and prayers are coming your way from here.

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  66. I haven't visited your blog before today, but bloggers stick together and a very sweet blog friend sent me your way. I just wanted to add my prayers and positive thoughts to the many others you are receiving. I do believe in the power of prayer and you have many people out here that you don't even know sending good wishes your way.

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  67. Dear Judy,
    May God give you strength! He will hold your hand and keep you surrounded in his light and love!
    My prayers for you are added to the many coming your way!

    God Bless!

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  68. Sending positive thoughts and prayers your way.

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  69. Judy,
    I just saw this post today. I'm so sorry you're going through this right now. I'm sending positive thoughts and prayers your way for your restored health. Wrapping my arms around you in a *virtual* hug. You are loved.
    Sandy

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  70. I join all the others in prayer and thoughts for you at this time.

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  71. I pray that God will work a miracle for you. You are in my prayers.

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  72. Everyone has already said what I'm thinking, but I wanted to leave a comment to let you know there's one more person sending positive thoughts your way.

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